Started smoking again :-(

[vapourized]

I'm really disappointed with myself but in another strange way, I'm not. I'm very confused at the moment.

On Wednesday lunchtime I had such a strong urge to have a real smoke and I sat in the car park in the hope that having some 24mg would help me through it but it didn't. I made the decision and bought 20 JPS Blacks and sat back in the car and chain smoked 3. It felt so good but I felt terrible in the fact of what I had just done.

I am now back to smoking 3 a day, one in the morning, one at lunchtime and one on the way home, if my wife found out (who has also given up a week after me) then she will go berserk. I really, really don't want to start smoking again after being so successful so far - what on earth has happened and what can I do? I need some help and advice here people. :-(

I can't really smoke at the weekend as we are both together most of the time so this weekend will be interesting to say the least. I have been vaping all the time since I got up this morning and it seems to be OK at the moment with no real desire to smoke yet, I just hope that it lasts. I've got all my batteries charged, plenty of juices and all carts full and ready to use so that I should have no need to smoke.

I just went to preview this post and saw my sig pic at the bottom showing me how much I've saved (I've actually got £300 in cash saved in a box) and that's made me feel even worse as I feel like a cheat. Arrrrrgh!!

Sorry about the sob story!

Graham

[Sandra (aka Chillax)]

Graham don't beat yourself up, the saying is-think how many you have avoided, not smoked

Maybe you need a better or bigger battery and atty? What are you using?

[vapourized]

Oct 13, 2012 10:07:12 GMT Sandra (aka Chillax) said:

Graham don't beat yourself up, the saying is-think how many you have avoided, not smoked

Maybe you need a better or bigger battery and atty? What are you using?

I'm using all sorts Sandra, Clearomisers, pre filled carts, non pre filled carts, passthroughs, SD and a Riva 1100 batteries. Juices are either 18 or 24mg mainly all tobacco flavour and also some menthol. Are there higher than 24mg juices available or is that not the way to go?

Graham

[Sandra (aka Chillax)]

There are higher, not that I have tried them, the 24mg would blow my head off, do you feel a vape doesn't satisfy you or is it just sometimes?

[gjdart]

Treat it as a blip! ...so you've had some stinkies...big deal! Think of all the real fags you haven't had and all the money you have saved.

If your OH is anything like mine she'll smell the real fags off you from 500 yards (never could hide them from him ) but at the end of the day you have to stop for yourself not because someone else would like you to.

Really 3 a day isn't a big deal and may just help you over this rough patch, but if you REALLY want to stop try not to let it get to 4-5-6-7-8-9 etc etc.

Good luck..

[beautycat]

Sometimes it's just the naughtiness if it , you have been doing great and it's a little lapse probably, have you tried a twist these can help, you can turn the volts up and down to get a more satisfying vape

[vapourized]

Vaping satisfies me to a certain point and I also really enjoy it, I prefer the tastes I've got now too and this is what I don't understand. Why am I still getting this desire (not sure that is the correct word) to smoke when it doesn't taste as good but it does somehow just seem right. When I smoke then I can really feel that I'm inhaling something and it's doing something but when I vape, I'm just not getting that same feeling from my lungs. There's loads of vapour when I exhale, as much vapour as smoke but not the same feeling - does that make sense?

Graham

[OneDay]

Graham I echo what others have already said. Your banner says you have avoided 990 fags so far. If you smoked 3 on Wednesday, Thursday and Friday that 990 is still 981.

You are the only person I've heard of on the forum who proudly puts real cash in a box and £300 is a fantastic result already. In six months of vaping I've never got £300 ahead because I tend to spend it on new shineys.

I obviously don't know your OH but my advice would be to talk this blip through with her and get her help rather than trying to hide it from her, because she WILL know.

Good luck, and here's to the next £300

[Sandra (aka Chillax)]

Have a look here

www.flavourart.co.uk/

The bite Xtra is supposed to be good and may give you that extra umph.

[vapourized]

Thank you to everyone of you who has replied, just this has helped me calm down over it a bit. My OH and me are very close and I could talk this through with her without a problem - that's why I said she would go berzerk if she found out - not because I bought some fags but because I didn't say anything to her, she would much prefer that - and then go berserk.

Beautycat, I think you're right to a certain extent, because I'm hiding the issue then I feel like when I was kid smoking behind my parent back and half of the enjoyment of smoking then was just that!!

I guess that smoking 2-3 a day for me is not that bad considering what I was smoking a day before I started vaping but 2-3 a day is 2-3 too many in my book and I've got to knock it on the head somehow.

Graham

[vapourized]

Oct 13, 2012 10:35:49 GMT Sandra (aka Chillax) said:

Have a look here

www.flavourart.co.uk/

The bite Xtra is supposed to be good and may give you that extra umph.

I just had a look at that - looks good. I will have a read and try and sort a couple out. Thank you.

Graham

[Chrissie]

Graham, I also echo what everyone else has said. Don't be too hard on yourself.

[vapourized]

Well I've just 'fessed up to my OH and as I thought, there was no problem and she understood completely, phew!! She said very much what you all have been saying and not to be too hard on myself especially considering that I went from 60 a day to nothing and that 2-3 a day is not the thing to be worrying about - it's the 57 a day I'm not smoking I should be proud of.

So thanks everyone, this little conversation and words of wisdom from you all has been of great help - much appreciated.

Graham

[Clutter]

Graham, your system has probably only recently expelled all the toxins from smoking. Its not only the nicotine in cigs which is addictive

60 a day down to 3 is good. It wouldn't have worked for me because my consumption would quickly have risen back to 60.

Out of interest, had your wife noticed that you were smoking?

[Bluefish]

Hi graham, when i read that you had saved the 300 quid in a short space of time i suspected that you used to be a heavy smoker, so it is not surprising that you have some small hiccup's on the journey from smoking to vaping, i would try a stronger juice and see if that helps.