My grandads last day.

[roachieuk (aka eciggery2011)]

Today was my granddads funeral it was a beautiful service it was one of the most weirdest things tho that it didnt actually hit me till we got out of the car and i saw my granddad being carried into the crematorium.Then it hit me like a tonn of bricks hes now finally gone ill always rember the good days and the last day i ever saw him.

He was out in his wheelchair with me and my mum having a cigg as usual and i guess it was the last time i saw him smile as me granddad very rarely did that god rest his soul.He would of been looking at us all today crying and he would be going "what you all bloody crying for" hehe bless him.

Always remember you granddad never forgotten now you can be with nan

I now have no grandparents its a scary thought must be even more scarier for my mum as she has lost her mum and dad now.But me and my fam will be there for her no matter what love my mum to bits shes always helped anyone out.

P.S sorry to be morbid just needed to get it out.

[jerryrm]

Roachie, my deepest sympathies to you and your mom.

[AndnAnge]

Our thoughts are with you and yours Roachie ...nice to see the fond memories you have and obviously enjoyed.

[Perpetua]

(((( Roachie ))))

Keep the happy memories in your heart and your Grandad will always be with you.

[roachieuk (aka eciggery2011)]

Aww thanks everyone and sorry to sound so morbid and down tbh im alot happy now its all over.Im a guy who stands tall and dont show my feelings.

Just needed to get it out then i felt so much after i wrote that tbh.

Thank you so much everyone.

[Clutter]

(((( Roachie ))))

Your posts weren't at all morbid hun. You're telling everyone how much you loved and will miss your Grandad.

When my niece's grandmother (her father's mum) died, my sister told Rosie that the stars were where all the people who died went so they could look down on their friends and relatives and still love them.

I often look up and think fond thoughts about those who have passed.

[roachieuk (aka eciggery2011)]

Aww thanks clutter thts so nice saying that to your lil niece i shall tell my lil niece when shes old enough that her nanny and grandad are up there watchin her.She saw my grandad a few times but shes only 7months old bless her love her to bits hehe

[deesigner]

(((((Roachie))))) Those good memories will stay with you forever, hang onto them, they'll always be a special place in your heart and you'll be surprised when those happy memories will spring up.

I have found your posts showing how much you love your granddad very touching and not at all morbid. It's always very difficult when a loved one passed and I'm really glad that you felt you could share that with us all here.

[roachieuk (aka eciggery2011)]

Aww thanks ever so much dee im afraid my family will always come first in my books as we are a close family and you dont really see that much now days.My mums not copeing all that well but we are here for her as you gotta take note that my nan and grnadad were my mums life even tho shes disabled she always went and see him every day without fail so its like this missing hole for her now.shes been doing the same thing for the past 13-14years when she first lost her mum (my nan) she coped okish but now my grandads gone she feels theres a lost gap.Im the sort of guy who trys to put on a smile and make the day a brighter day

Ive always been brought up to be polite and use my P's and Q's and to always show respect.Im a really nice guy but if you cross my boundries then i bite hehe

And tbh i didnt post this to make people feel sorry for me or to make them feel down just needed to get it out with someone as 90pc of my frends dont live close by anymore and all of em have kids and are married.Im single and thats my choice sometimes i wish i had someone special but ive my fair share of mean girls so kinda throws me off a bit.

Anyways sorry for chewing your ears off lol

[deesigner]

Roachie I don't imagine anyone would even dream to think you posted for sympathy hun. I know that sometimes as we get older it's harder to keep close to our physical friends.

I am pretty much an orphan now myself, I lost my dad 9 years ago, I still think about him daily

As for your fair share of mean girls, I'm the other way round, I've had my full of mean men! LOL. Single to the end now, I'll stick with my diving and the kids.

[Lilac]

Lovely thread Roachie, and not sad or morbid at all...

it's all about love

[Chrissie]

Completely agree with Dee, Lilac & everyone else. This is a lovely thread Roachie & shows the love you have for your family I bet your grandad was very proud of you

[roachieuk (aka eciggery2011)]

Aww thanks ever so much everyone means alot and i appriciate it honestly do.

((((((((((((((((((((everyone in here)))))))))))))))))))))))))))

[tynesider]

Really sorry to hear about your bad news roachieuk, I'm just getting over similar experiences myself and I know how sad it can be for everyone involved. I know it doesnt matter what comfort anyone gives you as you are still hurting inside and nothing can stop that. I know in time it will get better and better and eventually you will be left with fond memories or your grandad and nan and knowing they are now both together again. I know this is a terrible time for you but just rememeber that you will always have friends who you can talk to.

[Clutter]

(((( Tyne ))))

It takes a bloody long time but eventually it is possible to think of your dearly departed without hurting and more in a wistful way, such as Dad/Mum would have really laughed at this or I'd love to have seen Dad's face when he saw/heard that.