Balls .. I have sinned !

[themer]

I have smoked today. Only 1 this afternoon but I rather liked it and would do it again . I'm so cross with myself, however this second week has been horrendous . I dread to actually think what is in cigarettes as I have been utterly depressed, weepy, really anxious yet tired at the same time It's certainly not for lack of nicotine as I am using my 18 or 20 mg juices on and off all day . Probably more than I smoked as I have lots of new flavours I had to try out .
I am cross with myself however tomorrow is another day and all that. Just utterly shocked at how crap I felt even when happily topping myself up on nic.
I think I am going to browse some more liquids tonight just to cheer myself up and stop me from raiding the goodie cupboard and watching moany films

[Karma]

Don't worry about it Mer, think about all the ciggies you've not smoked

Many people vape and smoke especially at the beginning while trying to find the right set up and juice

[mzal]

You could try some 24mg juice that bit stronger nic might help with the cravings. Also don't worry about the occasional cigarette just think about how many you have not smoked and be proud of that!

[linzipinz]

things happen and all you can do is try your best. Dont beat your self up about it, as karma said think of all the cigs youve avoided by vaping

[suede]

Not a big deal.I smoked and vaped at first. Didn't give it a second thought.

[Perpetua]

Don't angst over it Mer . . . many Vapers also smoke a few baccy ciggies a day, in tandem with their vaping.

It's no biggie.


But I'd still cheer yourself up with a spot of retail therapy.

[DiscoDes]

I'd definately recommend some stronger juice to combat the cravings.

But don't beat yourself up about the ecig just think how many you've not smoked!

[martym9]

Don't worry about it, i will almost certainly have a cig at some point when i'm out for a few beers

[pikeybarsteward]

As other have said ...up that nic !!
I struggled too ,still do , but not like the first time properly off the fags . I tend to vape 36mg accross the board ...though I have been vaping a bit of 20mg for the first time in a year .. playing about with new stuff .

It has been suggested that some smokers are addicted to more than just nicotine , theres the oxygen deprivation and the beta carboline alkaloids as well ...which would explain why some of us really struggle .
Dont beat yourself up about it , to me the act is irrelevent , its the desire behind the act that needs a bit of attention

[comfrey]

Just don't worry about it. It's not a 12 step programme and you really don't need to beat yourself up about it.
Trust me, if I'd had some fags in the house at times, I would have had one or 50 too. But I just take a vape and the feeling goes, so I'm pleased I threw mine out.

If I worked or socialised more, I dare say I would have found things way more difficult than I have. You need to concentrate on the positives and just forget this wee blip

[johnboy]

Try a higher Nic content My Dear, That is what worked for me and a lot more peeps,
CHIN UP.

[Banky]

What's done is done, most have had a stinky and vaped.

[Ratfinkz]

As has been said, concentrate on the ones you haven't smoked, that's a massive achievement and having one does not take away from that.

Think about upping your nicotine levels though, hopefully that'll take away the cravings.

If you have a few more on other days though, it's not the end of the world, after all one or two a day is ten times better than 10 or 20 a day!

[Queenie Bee]

Dec 5, 2012 18:38:29 GMT themer said:

I have smoked today. Only 1 this afternoon but I rather liked it and would do it again . I'm so cross with myself, however this second week has been horrendous . I dread to actually think what is in cigarettes as I have been utterly depressed, weepy, really anxious yet tired at the same time It's certainly not for lack of nicotine as I am using my 18 or 20 mg juices on and off all day . Probably more than I smoked as I have lots of new flavours I had to try out .
I am cross with myself however tomorrow is another day and all that. Just utterly shocked at how crap I felt even when happily topping myself up on nic.
I think I am going to browse some more liquids tonight just to cheer myself up and stop me from raiding the goodie cupboard and watching moany films

hey thermer don't beat yourself up I have recently started having a few rollies a day after going 8 months without a cig . I have also read somewhere that some cigs contain chemicals found in antidepressant meds so might be why you are feeling low I think it's also the reason I have gone back on cigs since coming off my meds. If you feel low go to your doc they may be able to help

[andym]

Themer,as the good Book says........................."Let Him without Sin,cast the first stone"